As I sit listening to the little grunts (and lets be realistic, poots!), it baffles me that he's been with us for two months tomorrow. People say, "Isn't it hard to remember what life what like before him?" Heavens, no! It was quiet, organized, and restful! How can I forget that?! And I can't say say it hasn't crossed my mind every now and then that I sometimes miss those aspects of our old life. However, I wouldn't change a thing. My life is so full now-abundantly so! There's a space in my heart that's filled up. It was filled the moment he was born and I heard his little cry from behind that blue drape in front of me. It's like a missing piece is suddenly filled by this small body whose smile makes your day (or night at 2am!) and whose cries can tear your heart into pieces. Even though our world is totally upside down compared to 2 months ago, I wouldn't trade it for all the riches in the world. I know we are right where the Lord wants us to be. Raising this little boy under His guidance. And that's the truth!
Speaking of cries tearing a heart into pieces, we go to the pediatrician tomorrow morning for Drew's first set of shots since his birth. It has almost ruined my day thinking about it. I laid Drew on the floor today and had a talk with him about our trip tomorrow. I told him about the shots. He smiled at me. Oh, my son. When I tell you this in two years you'll cry crocodile tears. I have a feeling he won't be the only one crying tomorrow. I'll just be honest. I'm going to be the one crying crocodile tears tomorrow. I think I need some Ativan before I head to the clinic. We've got the infant Tylenol ready, and I'm as prepared as I can be for a fussy baby tomorrow.
On a more positive note, I am really looking forward to seeing how much he weighs and how much he's grown in length. Y'all, this kid doesn't skip meals. Even though he's 2 months old, he still eats every hour and a half several times during the day which leaves me feeling like a feeding factory! That's okay though. I know it's the best thing for my little man!
I work again this Friday night. My stomach gets into a knot just thinking about leaving my sweet boy again. I tell you- leaving your baby for the first few times is a new feeling! It's heart wrenching! People tell me it gets a little easier every time. Maybe I'll make it out of the garage without crying this time.
And for his baby book, I'm adding his likes/dislikes at 2 months old. Read on if you're that bored. :)
Likes: eating a lot, being lifted up and down, standing, walking up our chest while we hold his arms (I have to get a video of this soon), bathtime, kisses, coughs & sneezes (he thinks these are so funny), songs, speaking in funny voices, rattles, the bouncer
Dislikes: car rides when cranky, poopy diapers, being hot (this is the hottest natured child ever!), sleeping alone, and naps!
I have the cutest video of Drew laughing from today that I'll try and post this week. You know videos take forever to upload, and I honestly don't have forever. I'm surprised I finished this post without being interrupted for a feeding! Hope you all have an excellent, God-blessed week!
I am totally with you about remembering life before the baby. For a while, I felt like a terrible mom when people would say "I bet you can't remember life before him!" Jonah is 2 years old now and I still think about life before him. It was a good life then and it is a good life now...just a very different life. Treasure every second...it goes very fast. Fast forward two years and little Drew will walk into your bathroom while you are getting ready for work and say "you cute mommy!"
ReplyDeleteYou know, the cooler you are with shots, the cooler he'll be with them. When someday he can talk with you, stress that it's no big deal; in fact, you could get your flu shots together (my pediatrician allows family members to get the shot at the same time as the child). But until that day, just don't make a big deal of it. Yeah, it hurts, but it's absolutely necessary that he have the shots, so crying, and worrying, and predicting how upset everyone will be tends to build this enormous wave of fear and despair so that, when the pain of the shot finally comes, it confirms that "shots" are going to be devastating both to you and to him, and please dear God let there be no such thing as shots for the remainder of my life, says he. I know you think that it's too early for him to "get it", but I really think he does; I think children take their cues from what's going on around them, and the facial expressions of the two most important people in the world...mom and dad. Don't let that face be filled with fear and regret, but with compassion, understanding, and determination that shots are necessary and, sadly, so also is discomfort.
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